Monday, August 28, 2006
last week was simply filled with highs n lows. Exams took 1/2 of my week away and ended on tue. It was tough as usual but lower aims comes with less stress. haha. oppz. After exams i was like a happy crazy fella' hopping alr lyk i've been struck by lottery. Ermz, i cud say its not THAT a big deal but its jus a small relief frm other stuffs tt one relief feels like a crack in a pipe...all the pressure of water gushing out from a small leak. haha. yup n i kinda had fun after tt which i promise myself. hek.
tue i forgot le bt i remb i went out to dye my hair to a neat overall brown from e previous red. haha. need to keep myself tidy since my attachment starting. ha. den stayed out till ard 11. And YAR, met with a few mainlanders who tried stealing cabs from me n my sis. We got to a side to flag and there is tis grp of teens tt saw us n walked further down e lane to flag cab. Fair enuff. However after a 20min wait w/o cabs. That grp jus walked till in front of us to flag and still try to act cute. Den my fren n i cudn't believe it cos we tot they HAD EYES. Apparently no. Den my sis asked me if she will get hit if she go up to scold dem. HA. I saw a few big sized pple n said maybe, but after i saw them acting cute, i just say go ahead. ha. And my sis walked up to them and start nagging. Den i saw the no-brainers doing sth really stupid tt i cant miss out saying out. When my sis n i walked towards them, i realised they were standin rite at the turning pt of cars near the traffic light. DIaoz...DUmbass. Den my sis said them and they jus giv the "Ehz..wadever" expression. Den cos i was in gd mood tt day, but mouth still itchy, i said sth like "aiyah jie ah, dun stand beside them unless u wan to get bang by a turning car lar. So dumb. We BOOK cab lor. See if they wan to snatch a booked cabby lor. " And after they jus stun abit den giv a bu shuang look but we left le. Ha.
wed forgot le. Thur went check up at CGH. thx sia for the service..waited 5 hrs for test results, see doc, n prescription for medi. haha..LONG LONG LONG. Den after duno went where..forgot le.
Fri was e day my $ burst. Met a usual gang for k lunch n extended e time, after went to watch a movie, den met a few more souls for bowling and after dinner at marina...woah...almost 60-70bucks? hahah...ALOT of fun in A day but alot of cashflow OUT too..haha..oh n watched vcd till sat...
SAt was more budget. Went to ubin to cycle...took bumboat here n back also cheap cheap..Cycled quite a distance and it was fun..haha..butt hurting a lil' tho now. haha..den went for dinner at TM..haha...cartel..wahaha...
den sat din slp alot too..so 2-3 days nv slp..den sun abit sieh..haha..but end up rot at hm. supposed to go buy stuff de but shag le. haha..watched dvd from 12pm to 11.30pm..haha..omg. wad life. hahah..
Yest nite, a pal left 4 china study tour le..yawnz...haha..nt been meeting up since duno when..and he claims its forever my fault one..tho' i dun deny tt. haha. everytime free will ask me out. DEn i free i diam diam..only 1x i asked him out i tink.hahaha...But nvm lar...promised to meet up for activities when he's back. haha. Today i tink 1 npstrings alumni gg off to UK study le. din manage to send him off cos i no energy, but ok lar..at least had last outing wif him n the rest tt day...haha..sometime tis wk, sis n others gg thailand le. Hmm..maybe u will be back too..hmm..duno..or are u extending ur stay there..wadever. but Omg..all travelling. haha..tho' i cant but NVM..go safely come back safely pple! hahahah...sth i yearn but not do now. Its ok. Some other time bah. hek.
Today (Mon), is the 1st day of attachment at NTU!!! Hurray! SO excited!!! My head lar. haha..been working there for sometime becos of FYP le lar..haha..jus tt now go back as attachie nt as proj std only. Which means tt more saikang stuff for fixed hours everyday. haha...Hope i get to conc more on my proj (cos its linked) still. Altho i dun mind doing other stuff. Hope lab is not so crowded. Hope i dun need to stay too late over there....dun forget..its BoonLay n i live in Bedok. Yawnz.hahahah..
Hmm..ok lar..blogged rubbish le. Going to zzz at 2+ i hope so i can wakey at 6.30am le. Wish me luck! =)
PS: Sorry abt jus nw..i noe i did it time n again but cos i really got my reasons...Sorry for not dialling back...sorry for breaking my promise...sorry for letting u wait for 4/5 hrs tho' i noe i cant make it...i tot abt it..and ..sorry. Sorry, cos i still get weak when..when its U. I will get back to u...tml.
2:03 AM
Monday, August 21, 2006
Ok, this is gonna be a NORMAL blog. Stop ranting on depressing stuff or it will really get to me or pple. Pls dun mind if my tots jump ard without links..cos i wrote a post and it got bounced away. so i m rewriting but there's less FEEL to tis post le. =.0
haha. ermz ok, its been a LONG 2 wks of endless silent torture simply becos its the exam wk. haha. I have been trying so hard to study..NOT. wahahaha. Previously my focus for exams are quite clear, cos i know wad i needa do. ehz but now abit de lazy le. Its bad, *nods* I guess tis sem i got pretty outta focus, for stupid reasons.
took most of my exams, quite saddening cos i under-performed. I tink its NOT my fault. (i noe its a lie) haha. But wad's done is done. Cant turn back time, i wouldn't want it either, i WOULD DIE!!! I cant wait to grad! seeing all poly frenz leaving i just want to jump rite out of it now. tink Moving from JC to poly and enduring thru is really energy-draining. hahaha..
As i mentioned before to some pple, 6 semesters to me is indeed too exhausting. 2 sems will be too short to learn everytink. 6 semesters is too tiring, judging from the workload and pace, so 4 sems is the best sia..haha..stop when u noe we gonna start to crawl like a worm instead of fly like e dragon..hahah..oh no, crapz.
Ok, as i was saying, i was trying so hard to study tt i tuned into Mr. Lee's national day rally speech. haha. Interesting i must say. Ever wonder y moral education or wisp evolved? Haha..tune into it. Or any speech u will noe y. haha. Nt saying tt its redundant, in fact, its crucial if we are the ignorant lot. But yeah, luckily we aren't...to me, we are jus the passive lot. Haha, dun wan to tok abt any much of it here, jus want to say tt it was an interesting tok. Rallies sometimes do wonders in mass media influence. =)
As part of the speech, he mentioned sometink abt the environment influencing how and wad we become. But..hmm..wad abt they defining us, yet we defining them at the same time. haha..We are wad the environment is, we are the pple. We made the environment wad it is, so shldn't it be WE define them? Which comes 1st? I duno if u r confused now, but i jus want to make U confused with the chicken and egg theory. haha..Ok, to stop the confusion, jus stick the two phrase together and read it with the national heart-ware context " they define us, we define them" haha...still blur? forget it..hahah..
As of tml, i will be free from the chains of exams! Lotsa tinks i noe are in for me after tt. Attachment...sch events..lotsa cca stuffs and fun fun and MOre fun. hahah..and goody goody...new guitar's arriving soon...! *droolz*
tml..gonna take last exam, go trim hair. hHAHA.. YEah. its not gonna be bushy soon..i cant wait. ^^
"we got to learn how to laugh at ourselves"
7:04 PM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
today i ended class early.
today i got my scholarship award.
today i submitted work debts.
today i tried revising.
but i m bleeding terribly inside now...
feeling like shit...
fug...
nerve-wrecking. great.
done so much,
accomplished so much,
yet destroyed so much,
and going to witness so much more happening.
my heart is crying and aching like hell. do u even want to try and understand.
tot at least u cud understand but how wrong can i be.
thx a hell lot. its gonna b e time again, n i m in it once again.
wad the fug m i tolerating such nonsense when all i get is nonchalance.
after timeless efforts of pulling things and pple tgr, all i get is blame and anger.
ok, i m out, No, how can i be?
thx again, for tis great honour.
oh god, m i a crying fool.
fug me, e useless fellow, 'fer these failures brought upon undo thy successes ever so easily.
jus FUG it.
1:23 AM
